Figuring Myself Out First
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If you like it then I will continue the story, just let me know that you like it. This is a true story, I had to change the names though.
This story is about a girl who struggled with many things throughout her life. From depression to being close to commit suicide to almost losing the love of her life to something so unspeakable it makes people sick to their stomachs every time it is heard about. She knew it wasn't easy but she always felt alone even when she was surrounded by people who loved her. She had amazing friends. Even so, as much as they were best friends to her, she still felt alone in her dark thoughts. She knew it wasn't going to be easy but when she hit her freshman year of college, she never thought she plummet down so far where she can barely stand up on her own. She was and is afraid, but who's there to truly catch her? How far can she go before she starts to fall and crawl to survival or to her merciful death.
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