Or Did You Let Go?
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A Dear Evan Hansen Royalty AU.
Connor didn't like his life at all, he was constantly yelled at by his parents, his tutors spent all their time telling him to act properly and his sister was constantly disappointed in him. It didn't help that he was a prince and therefore was expected to constantly be on his best behaviour. Luckily Larry had somehow managed to convince the country that Connor was in boarding school in an effort to keep him out of the public eye, and it worked (that was one thing that Larry had done right). So, Connor didn't worry about his image, not that he would have anyway, he just did what he wanted. What he wanted was to get as far away from reality as he could, so he got high. When he wasn't high he was drunk and when he wasn't drunk he was asleep.
For Evan it is different, he is always nervous, always scared, always anxious and he doesn't know how to stop, so he hides away instead. He just keeps in the background or tries to at least. His therapist is always saying he should put myself out there more, but he never can. He always gets nervous and start worrying about how sweaty his hands are.
Trigger Warnings: Suicidal thoughts, self harm, drugs, alcohol
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