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Or Did You Let Go?

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A Dear Evan Hansen Royalty AU.

Connor didn't like his life at all, he was constantly yelled at by his parents, his tutors spent all their time telling him to act properly and his sister was constantly disappointed in him. It didn't help that he was a prince and therefore was expected to constantly be on his best behaviour. Luckily Larry had somehow managed to convince the country that Connor was in boarding school in an effort to keep him out of the public eye, and it worked (that was one thing that Larry had done right). So, Connor didn't worry about his image, not that he would have anyway, he just did what he wanted. What he wanted was to get as far away from reality as he could, so he got high. When he wasn't high he was drunk and when he wasn't drunk he was asleep.


For Evan it is different, he is always nervous, always scared, always anxious and he doesn't know how to stop, so he hides away instead. He just keeps in the background or tries to at least. His therapist is always saying he should put myself out there more, but he never can. He always gets nervous and start worrying about how sweaty his hands are.

Trigger Warnings: Suicidal thoughts, self harm, drugs, alcoholAll Rights Reserved

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𝐁𝐀𝐃 𝐈𝐃𝐄𝐀 ━ connor murphy x reader. by ygmisnote

𝐁𝐀𝐃 𝐈𝐃𝐄𝐀 | ❝ i wish you could see yourself the way i do... ❞ ━ After Y/n L/n courageously intervenes to defend the enigmatic and troubled Connor Murphy from a pair of bullies, her brave act lands them both in detention, where their paths intertwine. Despite Connor's initial resistance, a gradual bond forms between them, revealing layers of vulnerability beneath his sarcastic and sullen exterior. As they spend more time together, Y/n becomes a source of solace for Connor, offering an understanding that he's never experienced before. However, Connor is harboring a secret burden - a looming plan to end his own life that hangs over his head constantly. Even as his feelings for Y/n grow, he struggles with the idea of dragging her into his dark world. He wrestles with the fear of causing her pain and the weight of his emotional turmoil. Still, he finds himself unable to push Y/n away completely, torn between his desire for her presence and his fear of tainting her with his troubles. But one question keeps popping up during his restless nights: Could she be the very person who can help and teach him how to live? [started: august 26, 2023] ©ygmisnote

Sincerely, Me (Treebros - Dear Evan Hansen Fanfiction) by HelloHelloHello83

'I am so sorry...' 'I'm so glad...' 'I'm here for you...' Does he really mean all of that? ••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• Evan Hansen receives an email from Connor Murphy, who just needs someone to talk to about his depression and his coping methods. Connor goes by "C" and Evan goes by "E." Meanwhile at school, Connor is unknowingly picking on his internet best friend, and enemy of sorts, Evan. How will the two react if/when their internet personas meet their real ones in person? Warnings: some mentions of suicide and self harm, use of drugs/alcohol, some swearing

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Mikael Volkov was certain he knew what his type was in guys. But after transferring to a new high school and getting on that first bus, he was blown away by someone unexpected. And his attraction was undeniable. But Mikael has something special about him, just like his love interest. And that attracts trouble in a number of ways. But will they get out of it whole and healthy? Join Mikael and experience special friendships, drama, action, supernatural abilities, and more. ______________ Warnings: Child abuse (mentions of the past) Sexual abuse (mentions that have not been perpetuated by the main characters) Kidnapping Mentions of rape/sexual assault (not perpetuated by the main characters) Mentions of drug use (not perpetuated by the main characters) Violence Good things: Fluffy romance Protectiveness Obsessiveness Cute moments/scenes Cute bromance Friendships Good family And more! ______________ Cover belongs to me, Origin_of_Kelpie (Alessa). I designed and drew it, so please don't steal it. That's not cool. 3: Tag rankings out of a 1,000+ stories: #2 in "organizations" (8/16/2023) #3 in "humantrafficking" (5/30/2023)

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A different death. A different letter mishap. A different relationship. A different reason. But the story is still there. What if Evan had talked to Zoe outside of Jazz Band?What if they started dating? What if Zoe had died? What if secrets get let out? What if someone gets hurt because of it? What if's build up, as does pressure, for both the abandoned and the grieving. They need support, and comfort. But to find it when the world is beginning to turn against them will be difficult. !! Notes !! These are the trigger warnings: Suicide, self-harm, heck ton of cursing, a few slurs, jokes about death (probably), panic attacks, a lot of sobbing I'll alternate POVs whenever I feel like it. Connor's view has the most angst and depression. Chapter # = Evan i's = Zoe # = Connor I do NOT own the cover art. Only the text on it- credit to Astrocitos on 8tracks.

His Cure (Connor Murphy x reader) [FINISHED] [EDITED] by That1fandomfreak

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Spotlights by internal_warfare

Evan Hansen is an introverted teenager with severe social anxiety. His mother, in attempt to get Evan out of his shell and into the world, pushes him to sign up for a theatre class. After some arguing and relentless begging, Evan reluctantly agrees, only wanting to make his mom happy. Connor Murphy, facing depression, drug addiction, and an increasingly deteriorating relationship with his family, finds joy only in weed and acting. He'd been attending the same class for three years, the only place he felt at peace. On Evan's first day, he notices everyone else already had their own groups of friends, no one was alone, except him. Well, him and the boy with the long hair and black hoodie who was intimidatingly brooding in the corner. Connor is not the most welcoming, in fact he's far from it. Though, eventually he begins to tolerate Evan's presence, and soon goes from tolerating it to enjoying it. When Evan miraculously gets cast as the lead role in a show the class is performing, Connor takes it upon himself to help Evan step into the spotlight. (I do not own DEH, I also do not own the cover art!) #youwillbefound

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I DO NOT OWN ANY CHARACTERS OR ANYTHING PLEASE DON'T COPYRIGHT ME PLEASE. Evan has always had some trouble making friends. He will admit that. His school was extremely transphobic, homophobic, you name it. But there are those few accepting people who may care. Jared knew he was kind of a weirdo. Okay a huge weirdo. He really just wanted some real friends. Is that too much to ask? His only real friend didn't even think he actually cared. Connor just wanted the pain to stop. That's all. He could numb it all he wanted but it never went away. He hated his parents. His sister was barely tolerable. But he just wanted to die. Evan and Jared have been friends for a while now. But they are just "family friends" although they both want more. They meet Connor and feelings erupt from the three. Connor and Jared support Evan in his troubles. Evan and Jared help Connor to better his mental state. And Evan and Connor give Jared much needed love. Everything goes smoothly until Evan starts getting sick. Really sick. The stress that his anxiety put on him may have been too much. No one knew what caused it, but just like words, his heart was failing. Will Evan be okay? Will this affect their relationship? Jared and Connor worry too much for their own good but they can't help it. Who can?

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