Everything I wanna Say

I thought long and hard.
Wrestle with the doubts.
And wrestled for it to be penned on paper.
What I harbored in my heart and let it stew in my mind.
What was struggling to escape from my mouth but died.
What was pressed behind my lips.
What was stopped by gritted teeth.
These are my words that never managed to be said.
I don't know why I never uttered them.