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The Source || Lashton

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This was made centuries ago. Okay, last year, but my writing has improved so if you want to read some cringey shit read this lol.


"Why am I such a Fuck up?" "You're not," "If I wasn't the love of my life would love me back!" He didn't know what to do anymore, it seems as everything's gone down the fucking drain for him. He can never have a smile on his face without feeling like he's forcing something on him. He knows he's a disgusting faggot who's gay and he doesn't really give two shits when he's high and taking heroin to take away the pain which is life. He doesn't give a fuck when he's slicing his wrists feeling blue in his blood. He doesn't really give a fuck about anything anymore, just the littlest things like the fans and his band mates. They don't know about his secret that has somehow fucked up his life. He gives a shit about one thing though Luke Hemmings. And it's hard to know that the one thing you care about, you can't have. When Luke finds out about this, he didn't know he's the source of the pain, it hurts him so much knowing that he wants to help him, but while he's helping him it's destroying Ashton more.All Rights Reserved

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If Walls Could Talk (lashton) by boomerluke

The last thing Ashton ever wanted to do was hurt Luke, but he couldn't help it. The singer was just so beautiful, so ethereal and otherworldly that it took his breath away most of the time. Everyone felt that way about their best friend though, right? It was normal. No use getting unnecessary feelings involved, it was better this way. Luke understood. Luke wasn't sure when this thing between him and Ashton started, or how it started, but it didn't matter. He was in too deep to go back now. So Luke would let Ashton use him, hurt his feelings and crawl back with apologies. Because at the end of the day, even when Luke had to watch Ashton leave the bar with a new pretty blonde each night, he knew the drummer would eventually end up back in his bed. And Luke told himself he was okay with that.

FADING AWAY 2 || A MICHAEL CLIFFORD FANFICTION by SUPzines300

THIS IS THE SEQUEL TO "FADING AWAY || A MICHAEL CLIFFORD FANFICTION" I'M NOT SAYING TO GO READ THE OTHER ONE FIRST BUT YOU WILL GET A BIT CONFUSED, SO READ AT YOUR OWN RISK I GUESS. {[(DISCLAIMER there will be cursing along the story when I fell like I need to make anything more interesting or clear and at some point, there will be a part (or many) that includes the topic of self-harm so if you are triggered by this please don't read this story. Also just blame the internet for all of the spelling mistakes there are all over the chapters I'm a human ok I make mistakes. If you have any suggestions for future chapters tell me and it just might be included. )]}

Beside you 5sos (boyxboy) (Malum, Lashton) by JaderTader637

Michael is suicidal Calum is closeted Ashton has anxiety Luke is anorexic Calum is a jock who has always been popular but has a secret he's hiding from everyone. When he meets Michael he falls in love he decides to keep it a secret in fear of losing his popularity. He is able to suppress his affections for a while but suddenly he finds himself wanting more with Michael then secrete kisses. Micheal once was happy and free, never shedding a tear, but when his mother died in a horrible car accident two years ago he became depressed, suicidal, and started cutting. He is better now with the help of his best friend Ashton but he still has the bad habit of cutting. When he meets Calum his whole life turns upside down. He both wants to shred his hole body and never cut again at the same time. This boy confuses him like no other but when he wants to keep it a secret he has no choice but to obey. Ashton has had anxiety attacks since the time he was seven when his dad started beating him. Around three years ago someone found out and Ashton was taken away. His best friend Michael and his family took him in. He is now going to college and is hoping to make a new start but his anxiety starts to get the best of him as the stress of college thickens. Maybe his new friend Luke can help him more then Ashton knows. Luke was bullied all his life for being fat. He would come home from school crying into his mother's arms. He became so depressed that he stopped eating all together. One day he looked in the mirror and realized that he was losing weight. He stopped getting bullied but still continued not to eat unable to shake the disease. He soon became hospitalized and started to eat again but after he got rejected by multiple collages his self esteem went down and he stopped eating. After meeting and falling in love a guy named Ashton he quickly realizes that he is more than what those people say. Warning: Strong language Smutt Violence Suicidal content

Stockholm Syndrome l.h by Djboobear14

DON'T READ THIS FFS I WROTE THIS WHEN I WAS LIKe 15 It was a dream to always be snatched by one of my favourite bands ; probably one of yours too. But somehow this turned into my shitty reality. ~ It was getting late and I needed to get home for school in the morning. I said my goodbyes and decided on taking the short cut through "dead mans alley" to get home faster. "Don't take the alley, you'll get hurt." "It's dangerous." "I'm warning you." "You've heard the stories!" Yeah, yeah I've the rumours, the stories, I've heard everything. I take that shortcut everyday after school and nothing ever happened. Until now. -----> **Contains sexual content, explicit language, physical abuse** *in that weird video game voice: Rated M for Mature* ☠Yeah, sorry if this sucks☠

Attention || Lashton by EmmaGordonClifford

Luke Hemmings is on the football team and is very popular among his fellow students. He is smart, but he has his flaws. He doesn't associate often with people who he finds to be 'lower' than him; this being based on social status. Ashton Irwin loves attention. He likes to start drama, and this makes him less liked and at the bottom of the high school food chain. Soon enough, when senior years starts and people start drifting from him he begins to self-harm to pull them back in. He would show them his cuts, but people weren't having it. They knew his game. But Luke didn't. One day Luke would see these cuts on Ashton's wrist and Luke becomes determined to help the boy who doesn't really need it. **Short Story**

Silence (5sos ot4) by kaila_aaa

He was silent. He didn't like talking. Being abused could do that to a person. And having a lisp and a stutter didn't help. He hadn't said a word in so long, but no one cared. Everything was better in a world where he didn't talk. He probably could've lived like this until the day he finally decided to kill himself. Until he meets three people who decide to change that... *This is a Trigger Warning to be placed on most chapters. Please do not read if you think you may be affected/hurt by anything tagged. Stay safe please!!!*

Amnesia [Lashton] Sequel to YDHMC by danyulaintonfiyah

"Hey, Ash. You don't remember me. I'm your boyfriend, Luke. We're in a band, with our best mates, Calum and Michael. You... uh, well you're suicidal. That's what got you in here. You tried to kill yourself. But you don't remember that either, do you? Huh, the doctor says you might never remember these things. Ever. I miss the times where you were too shy to say,'I love you' unless I said it first. But, I guess, in a way, this is a good thing. I might have lost you, but now you don't remember what you hate about yourself. In itself, that's good. Now I don't have to see you hurting. But now, everybody has to see me hurting. I miss you so much, Ash, but I can't tell you that. It'd freak you out, and then, I'd have lost you for good. I'm just going to have to hold on to the slight possibility that you'll remember me to get myself through this, Ash, because, otherwise, I don't think I'll be able to handle this. I love you, Luke x." ~Please read the first book first 'You Don't Hear My Cries

Skullfuck {5SOS;CASHTON&MUKE}✔️ by teethcollective

{completed} "All you powerful men are the same. You don't want love, you want a servant." "I didn't come here for moral bullshit. Are you taking the job or not?" "We will but only because it's been a long time since we've had fun with a self centered prick." -- There's a couple that rules the city in the shadows of the darkness by bloodshed, perfect for each other even with their distinctive differences between them and the trail of bodies that follow them in their line of work and give them the prestige of the underworld of crime. Ashton is calloused, calculating, hard to read, and a man known to be of very few words. He's become even more of a man incapable of being understood with Calum at his side, a man who couldn't be more different than his darling than anything else. He's discourteous, intense and purely psychotic with a part of himself that loves hard and fast to the point where his mania isn't something that can be easily or at all controlled, except by Ashton. Despite their differences, their love thrives and their reciprocated toxicity bleeds throughout everything they do, including their dealings with Michael. Michael and Luke's relationship had never been the best but it never meant he wanted his fiancé dead as he's come to realize, even if he did make a deal with the devilish couple that has him reevaluating himself while Luke enters a battle against the depths of his own mind and heart, facing his relationship and what true love is as he fights against madness. -- "You're not so bad on the eyes, doll face. I was kinda hoping you were really ugly. It would probably make this a hell of a lot easier." "Fuck you, Luke! I can't believe you're making jokes right now! Why are you being so stupid?"

Liar Liar | Lashton by prettyboymalum

Luke is in love with his best friend, Ashton Irwin. He constantly finds himself getting stuck in situations where he feels exposed to his feelings and sexuality. That's the problem. Nobody knows that Luke is into guys, due to his lack of communication and honesty. He knows that his mates aren't homophobic people, but, he is afraid of a few judgements being made. Luke is trapped inside his own little box, bubbling up the thoughts of confessing his feelings for Ashton. However, each time he tries, he ends up creating lies after lies, which the older lad believes. Will Ashton finally see through Luke's lies, or will he stay oblivious to the fact that Luke is in love with him? - • Started - September 22nd, 2014 • • Finished - June 23rd, 2015 • - ** this is one of the first fanfictions I ever wrote. It's not great. Read at your own risk.. **

ugh → l.h ⋆ a.i by wfttwtaflive

⤷ you're the only thing that's going on in my mind. [completed] → content warning: homophobia depression

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If Walls Could Talk (lashton)

The last thing Ashton ever wanted to do was hurt Luke, but he couldn't help it. The singer was just so beautiful, so ethereal and otherworldly that it took his breath away most of the time. Everyone felt that way about their best friend though, right? It was normal. No use getting unnecessary feelings involved, it was better this way. Luke understood. Luke wasn't sure when this thing between him and Ashton started, or how it started, but it didn't matter. He was in too deep to go back now. So Luke would let Ashton use him, hurt his feelings and crawl back with apologies. Because at the end of the day, even when Luke had to watch Ashton leave the bar with a new pretty blonde each night, he knew the drummer would eventually end up back in his bed. And Luke told himself he was okay with that.