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The Source || Lashton

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This was made centuries ago. Okay, last year, but my writing has improved so if you want to read some cringey shit read this lol.


"Why am I such a Fuck up?" "You're not," "If I wasn't the love of my life would love me back!" He didn't know what to do anymore, it seems as everything's gone down the fucking drain for him. He can never have a smile on his face without feeling like he's forcing something on him. He knows he's a disgusting faggot who's gay and he doesn't really give two shits when he's high and taking heroin to take away the pain which is life. He doesn't give a fuck when he's slicing his wrists feeling blue in his blood. He doesn't really give a fuck about anything anymore, just the littlest things like the fans and his band mates. They don't know about his secret that has somehow fucked up his life. He gives a shit about one thing though Luke Hemmings. And it's hard to know that the one thing you care about, you can't have. When Luke finds out about this, he didn't know he's the source of the pain, it hurts him so much knowing that he wants to help him, but while he's helping him it's destroying Ashton more.All Rights Reserved

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Losing All Hope by kisumomo

I've never been good at explaining things or giving people an answer. But I've always been good a listening. That's why I'm best friends with Calum, that's why my boyfriend is Luke. They needed someone to understand them, help them. But I also needed someone to back me up when things get rough. My two favorite boys meet Michael then they meet Ashton. You may know these boys to be Five seconds of summer. But they are the 5 seconds that saved my life. Hope doesn't know what waits for her in the end, or who waits for her. YESSSS a 5sos fanfic, more towards Luke Hemmings. But it's a great story. Has some sexual jokes, some steamy moments, and also a lot of profanity. Hope you enjoy, I know I will;) ~~finished but still editing mistakes~~ ~~SEQUAL IS UPP~~

Worthless || Hemmings by CliffordCalls

(its now june 2018, i wrote this like a year and a half/two years ago. my life has changed and so have my perspective on writing this kinda shit. so be warned of cringyness, also go buy & stream Youngblood now!) worth·less ˈwərTHləs/ adjective 1. having no real value or use."that promise is worthless" 2. synonyms: Valueless  •(of a person) having no good qualities; deserving contempt. Worthless. That's what they told her she was every day of her life. From her family mostly. Sometimes her friends. Especially from him. Noelle Robberts was a girl In small town Goolwa, South Australia. Her family constantly told her she was a mistake and no one cared about her. She didn't listen to them, kept her head up high and ignored the shit they gave her. Luke on the other hand, got told the complete opposite. His parents were loving and caring and treated him like he was a king. He loved every second of it. He knew he was good looking, and could get anything or anyone he wanted. He was in a secret band, played guitar and listened to rock music. He on the outside was some rich, snooty asshole. But on the inside was so much more. When the two meet in am unexpected way, the tables turn. Cover By: Ella-Vader   All Rights Reserved @AshWritings

Silence (5sos ot4) by kaila_aaa

He was silent. He didn't like talking. Being abused could do that to a person. And having a lisp and a stutter didn't help. He hadn't said a word in so long, but no one cared. Everything was better in a world where he didn't talk. He probably could've lived like this until the day he finally decided to kill himself. Until he meets three people who decide to change that... *This is a Trigger Warning to be placed on most chapters. Please do not read if you think you may be affected/hurt by anything tagged. Stay safe please!!!*

The Irwin Chronicles//lashton by writer_of_stories33

While on tour Ashton has been struggling the past couple of months, while no one seems to notice, until Luke does one day. Luke who has started drinking again struggles to contain his back and forth mindset with his feelings towards Ashton and his own issues. Luke's battle with substance abuse and Ashton's declining mental health, mixed into their already crazy lives, starts a horrible downhill spiral for one of them. Trigger warning This book contains graphic descriptions and feelings that the reader may be trigger by, please read at your comfort level, this book is also incomplete and I haven't edited the chapters at the top to contain trigger warnings yet. -work in progress- Started in 2017 and picked up again in 2024. I feel like my writing has changed a lot since 2017, very unedited, just something for me to do/ keep me occupied.

If Walls Could Talk (lashton) by boomerluke

The last thing Ashton ever wanted to do was hurt Luke, but he couldn't help it. The singer was just so beautiful, so ethereal and otherworldly that it took his breath away most of the time. Everyone felt that way about their best friend though, right? It was normal. No use getting unnecessary feelings involved, it was better this way. Luke understood. Luke wasn't sure when this thing between him and Ashton started, or how it started, but it didn't matter. He was in too deep to go back now. So Luke would let Ashton use him, hurt his feelings and crawl back with apologies. Because at the end of the day, even when Luke had to watch Ashton leave the bar with a new pretty blonde each night, he knew the drummer would eventually end up back in his bed. And Luke told himself he was okay with that.

Beside you 5sos (boyxboy) (Malum, Lashton) by JaderTader637

Michael is suicidal Calum is closeted Ashton has anxiety Luke is anorexic Calum is a jock who has always been popular but has a secret he's hiding from everyone. When he meets Michael he falls in love he decides to keep it a secret in fear of losing his popularity. He is able to suppress his affections for a while but suddenly he finds himself wanting more with Michael then secrete kisses. Micheal once was happy and free, never shedding a tear, but when his mother died in a horrible car accident two years ago he became depressed, suicidal, and started cutting. He is better now with the help of his best friend Ashton but he still has the bad habit of cutting. When he meets Calum his whole life turns upside down. He both wants to shred his hole body and never cut again at the same time. This boy confuses him like no other but when he wants to keep it a secret he has no choice but to obey. Ashton has had anxiety attacks since the time he was seven when his dad started beating him. Around three years ago someone found out and Ashton was taken away. His best friend Michael and his family took him in. He is now going to college and is hoping to make a new start but his anxiety starts to get the best of him as the stress of college thickens. Maybe his new friend Luke can help him more then Ashton knows. Luke was bullied all his life for being fat. He would come home from school crying into his mother's arms. He became so depressed that he stopped eating all together. One day he looked in the mirror and realized that he was losing weight. He stopped getting bullied but still continued not to eat unable to shake the disease. He soon became hospitalized and started to eat again but after he got rejected by multiple collages his self esteem went down and he stopped eating. After meeting and falling in love a guy named Ashton he quickly realizes that he is more than what those people say. Warning: Strong language Smutt Violence Suicidal content

Torn in two - Lashton by toxic-mikey

Ashton Irwin tries to be like all other 17 year olds, but fails because people bully and judge him after coming out last year. He's suicidal and depressed until he meets a bisexual beautiful mistake named Luke Hemmings. His world spins around after his new friend (maybe even love interest) enters his life. "You saved me, for a bit, when I was about to drown, but you pulled me back to the surface. I was done but I love you. I was torn in two." ((WARNING THERES ALOT OF STRONG LANGUAGE, SELF HARM AND SEX, IF YOU DONT LIKE IT IM SORRY))

Saving Ashton // lashton by blurryfacelester

Ashton's in love with Luke but the day he was suppose to tell him was the worst day ever well in fact also is last day ever. Yes you Heard me Ashton "died" is it to late for Luke to ever find out? Is Luke able to save Ashton? Oh and guess how Luke is taking all this. If you guessed pretty bad. Then you got it right. Find out what happens and read my story "Saving Ashton ||Lashton||" and follow them on their journey. ============================= Nothing's been the same since Ashton's accident. Why was I such a jerk to him? Maybe if I would have listened maybe he would be okay and safe. It's all my fault. Everyone tells me to forget about it and it's not my fault but I can't help it. I think about him everyday, every hour, every minute I miss him so much. ~~~~~ Ik this sounds kinda shitty but just read the prologue and I promise you will love it. And if you don't like 5 seconds of summer don't complain. Just don't read my story

Liar Liar | Lashton by prettyboymalum

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Losing All Hope

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