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Whats deeper than my soul

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XionXDeathXxyz365

darkminds depression sadness sliceoflife

This is about a girl that has deep depression... Let me cut this short Feeeels it's mostly feels and it's and this is all real no fake stuff it's a true story and true feelings there's alot of ranting and ik..it's really sad but this is what goes on in her head and irl.. so enjoy.All Rights Reserved

darkminds depression sadness sliceoflife

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Me or We...?
Sun, Sep 9, 2018

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Me or We...?
Sun, Sep 9, 2018

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