Whats deeper than my soul
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This is about a girl that has deep depression... Let me cut this short Feeeels it's mostly feels and it's and this is all real no fake stuff it's a true story and true feelings there's alot of ranting and ik..it's really sad but this is what goes on in her head and irl.. so enjoy.
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