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Im afraid to live here

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Parts 6
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Reads 174
Votes 8
Parts 6
Time 44m

notusingthisxxxxx

abuse emotional emotions love sad sadness

Imagine this, coming home everyday, your body trembles with every step into the wretched place your heart beating and you have to do all this silently to sneak inside without pain. Pain? From what? Her mother, abused for three years she has to keep it a secret, her mother has sworn her life if she tells. She's abused because her mother thinks she's ugly and resembles her father to much. This passed on from her mothers dad, he was abusive to, and Farrah life isn't easier when two traumatic events happen. Who does she lose and whose life does she have to give up for her sanity. Everyday she goes to school covered in bruises and he blames it on sports and playing with her friends, which she claims don't go to this school. Though at school she's actually more of the well known student, but it hurts her friends like the person she's not, she's a lie, she places an angelic face on herself everyday for her sake, and she's plays the role well, but what happens if her breaking point tips? Can she regain the passion to live before its too late?All Rights Reserved

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Completely and Utterly Broken by MiaCxx

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Heal Me by XxHafsabegumxX

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𝑂𝑝𝑝𝑜𝑠𝑖𝑡𝑒 𝐿𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑠 || 𝐸𝑑𝑖𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔

Hate; feel intense or passionate dislike for (someone or something) Carter Shay is a seventeen year old girl who's grown up with everything handed to her in life, her family has money, she has a nice car. She has designer clothes. Great parents, goes to a great school. Great friends, popularity. But she has a secret as to why she gets everything she wants. Yet she doesn't let that stop her from acting like a teenager, from mood swings, to making enemies. Especially enemies, specifically Noah Miller. Noah Miller is a teenage boy who's worked for everything he has, yeah his family has money, they appear as a perfect family to the public eye. But what happens behind closed doors stays behind those doors. As one of the most popular guys in school, guys worship him, girls drool over him, and he lets it happen. Except her, he hates her. Whether it's the feud their families have, or just that fact that Carter Shay is everything that he hate's. They compete when it comes to anything, assignments, sports, pranks. It's not the 'I'm messing with you because I'm actually in love with you' It's the 'I absolutely despise you'. When they're forced to work on an assignment together instead of competing with each other, secrets come out, relationships start forming, and heart's get broken. 𝚂𝚝𝚊𝚛𝚝𝚎𝚍 || 𝙹𝚞𝚕𝚢 𝟷𝟶th 𝟸𝟶𝟸𝟷. 𝙵𝚒𝚗𝚒𝚜𝚑𝚎𝚍 || 𝙵𝚎𝚋𝚞𝚊𝚛𝚢 𝟸𝟾𝚝𝚑 𝟸𝟶𝟸𝟸.