Marical Bacques fell apart. The star hockey player known for being personable, sly, and fun was suddenly deep into a therapist's office, taking anti-depressants and attending Alcoholics Anonymous meetings. Although he was no longer in the sin bin on the ice it feels like he is in life off the ice. During his recovery, his therapist recommends that he pick up a hobby outside of hockey, as he can only view himself as a hockey player after the emotional abuse of his father. In his pink eyeshadow and red hair, Dallas Smith is there to teach Marical how to paint. Somewhere along the way, while he's working on bettering himself, Marical finds himself being taught many other things by Dallas. In a time of his life when the ice is uneven, and everything feels like a punishment in the sin bin, Marical is learning how to love himself and others.

I was young, naive, and weak, when my whole world collapsed. Now, I'm still young, but I know better. Better than to put my guard down. Better than to blindly believe those who promise, they won't hurt me. Better than to think someone would show some genuine interest in who I am instead of just taking advantage of me. Better than to trust anyone with my heart and body ever again. I spent years crawling up from the rock bottom, just now starting to see the light. Joining my college lacrosse team is a chance for happiness, but also a risk, I'm petrified to take. How am I supposed to look at my teammates and not see his face? How am I supposed to pretend I'm not on the verge of a panic attack, every time I step into the locker room? And how am I supposed to tell someone, that they only waste their time on me because I might as well be considered a lost cause?

tw's: descriptions of r*pe, eating disorders, panic attacks ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I had to flee. To escape. I couldn't take the pain of people telling me to be okay. That I was a survivor. But what about me being a victim? All because a few people refused to hear me when I said no. Now I carry around pain, fear, a disgusting feeling that is also there. Behind me. In the shadows. But maybe he'll be the light. ------------------------- This is a hockey player x gymnast college romance. A sunshine x grumpy, little forced proximity, he hangs the stars for her romance book where he would do anything to make her feel safe again

"I'd much rather have my head between her legs than yours." *** SEQUEL TO CONTRONYM Life is never kind to the broken. Then again, aren't we all broken? I've faced the sexists, the egotistics, the rapists, the catalysts; everyone is an asshole in their own right. Sadly, I'm maxing out on how much more hardship I can take. Griffin Riley used to be my enemy and the cause of my many headaches but now he seems to be my pain medication that takes the aches away. But nothing good can last forever. Maybe we'll be the exception. A girl can hope. But between the stress, high stakes, jealousy, fights, trials, the media, school, life changing scares, and most importantly; Lacrosse, our relationship will be put through the ringer. I just hope we aren't smushed to death.

𝙃𝙚 𝙘𝙝𝙤𝙨𝙚 𝙢𝙚 𝙛𝙧𝙤𝙢 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙧𝙩, 𝙬𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙄 𝙙𝙤 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙨𝙖𝙢𝙚?

𝙃𝙤𝙬 𝙘𝙤𝙪𝙡𝙙 𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙗𝙤𝙮 𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙜𝙚 𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙮𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜? 𝙔𝙤𝙪 𝙣𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧 𝙠𝙣𝙚𝙬 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙖𝙣𝙨𝙬𝙚𝙧 𝙩𝙤 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙦𝙪𝙚𝙨𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣, 𝙗𝙪𝙩 𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙧𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝙖 𝙣𝙚𝙬 𝙪𝙣𝙞𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙨𝙞𝙩𝙮, 𝙖 𝙣𝙚𝙬 𝙦𝙪𝙚𝙨𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣 𝙖𝙧𝙤𝙨𝙚. 𝙃𝙤𝙬 𝙘𝙤𝙪𝙡𝙙 𝙩𝙬𝙤 𝙗𝙤𝙮𝙨 𝙞𝙢𝙥𝙖𝙘𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙡𝙞𝙛𝙚 𝙨𝙤 𝙙𝙧𝙖𝙨𝙩𝙞𝙘𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙮 𝙗𝙪𝙩 𝙤𝙣𝙡𝙮 𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙜𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙡𝙞𝙛𝙚 𝙛𝙤𝙧𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧? *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧ *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧ "At first all he was to me was a stranger at a coffee shop, now look at us. How did it turn out like this?" *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧ *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧ "Everything ended with her. The second she left him, his whole world would come crashingdot an end." [𝙢𝙤𝙙𝙚𝙧𝙣 𝙖𝙪 / 𝙘𝙤𝙡𝙡𝙚𝙜𝙚 𝙨𝙚𝙩𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙜] 𝗲𝗿𝗲𝗻 𝘅 𝗳𝗲𝗺! 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗱𝗲𝗿 𝗷𝗲𝗮𝗻 𝘅 𝗳𝗲𝗺 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗱𝗲𝗿 𝙘𝙤𝙫𝙚𝙧 𝙖𝙧𝙩 𝙘𝙧𝙚𝙙𝙨: 𝙣𝙖𝙧𝙪𝙩𝙤𝙨𝙨.𝙧𝙖𝙢𝙚𝙣 *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧ *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧ 𝘿𝘼𝙏𝙀 𝙎𝙏𝘼𝙍𝙏𝙀𝘿: 08／12／2021 𝘿𝘼𝙏𝙀 𝙋𝙐𝘽𝙇𝙄𝙎𝙃𝙀𝘿: 02 / 10 / 2022 *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧ *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

Love, college and danger

What would you do if you were locked in a closet for seven minutes with your hockey crush? Millie and Rowan end up spending a chaotic couple of hours in a stupid game. She then disappears and the hockey player does his best to find her on campus. Millie doesn't expect it when the campus bad boy enters one of her art classes and declares he wants her. The chase soon begins, and this Russian girl, still trying to fit into the life of a young American, is completely lost.

Maggie Connors was Bucky's main target for his bullying in their younger days! Now she's become the object of his obsession in college. He'll do anything to make her see that he wants her all to himself. But he's doing it in all the wrong ways. Now this ice hockey star is gonna have to prove he's more than what she thinks he is. Will she be able to see past his bad boy ways or will it all melt into a puddle of water?