Drowning

broken girl,
it's okay.
i'm sure you'll learn to forgive yourself again one day.
he hurt you
he caused you pain,
he never really cared,
his love is something that you will never gain.
you cannot force him to want to be your father
its no use, so why even bother.
you feel trapped,
you feel all alone.
angry, bitter, and miserable
but they tell you that you have to figure it out all on your own.
you pushed them all away,
you hold it all in and put on a brave face,
now you're starting to realize you will never really win this race.