I wanted to be "normal"
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Have you ever looked at random people when you're out in public and thought "what does being normal mean? What is normal?" I've been tossing that question in my mind for quite a while now, this "story" is kind of my own story from my own point of view, I want to talk about one of my biggest insecurities and my biggest fears, or one of my biggest goals. This "story" I don't know what to call it, it talks about my depression, it has been really difficult for me to open up but I feel like I want to do this and I have to do this to be who I am
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