Free on the inside
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I finally made the decision to give my life over to God. Just starting out I have seen the positive impact that it has already made in my life. I am an addict. I have been an addict since I was 15 years old. I am turning 30 tomorrow. Time and time again I have made poor choices that have led me back into my addiction. I centered my life around me and what I thought was best. I continued to fail and saw the same consequences continue to happen in my life. Why would I continue to repeat the same behavior and expect a different result. I wss dealing with insanity at it's finest. I am at a crossroads once again and today is the day I decided to take a different route. I dont know what is in store for me but I know that if I make different choices this time I am sure to have different results. Letting go and letting God lead is freedom for me. Freedom from myself and freedom from a world of pain that I made for myself. These collections of poems I am writing is my expression of the joyous feeling that I encounter throughout my new jouney. I hope that they reflect who I am accurately and shine brighly with the light that has been filling my life.If I ever find myself lost again, I am recording the happieness that I feel when I am focused on God. I know that when I focus on myself I struggle with my addiction. But if I focus on God, I feel nothing but pure love and joy. So this is as much for me as it is for anybody who has had similar struggles. You are not alone and there is freedom from the darkness that seems to drown who we are on the inside. It is time to break the chains of addiction, and become free on the inside.
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