Am I Okay? (GarrothXFem!Reader)
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Last published Sun, Jul 4, 2021
⚠️TRIGGER WARNING⚠️
THIS STORY INCLUDES THE FOLLOWING: MENTAL AND PHYSICAL SELF-HARM, SUICIDAL THOUGHTS, MENTION OF SUICIDE, MENTION OF DEPRESSION, AND STRONG LANGUAGE.
I will inform you if any of these are coming up. If you are triggered by these I advise you to not read. If you still want to read then you may skip the parts. I will also inform you if the triggering part is important. (sorry that was probably really cringy)
I'm fine.
(I'm not fine please help.)
I'm just tired.
(I can't take this anymore.)
I already ate.
(I starve myself.)
Go away.
(Show me that you care enough to stay.)
I'm just cold.
(I don't want you to see my scars.)
I'm better, I promise.
(I've never been this bad.)
I'm okay.
(I want to die.)
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