Truth is... Matt short story (Death Note fanfic)

He's my strength, my weakness. The source of my sunlight, as well as my darkness. The past is what separates us. It lingers with him every second, fighting his existence. The past keeps up apart, keeps him doubtful. The one I truly love fights an inner battle. He has for as long as I can remember. He plays video games from Dawn until Dusk, drinking energy drinks like there's no tomorrow. I'm the only one that knows, that if he doesn't, he'll wake up screaming from nightmares. The one I love is always third place. He can never please our successor like Near can. Both the past and present linger here, between us. The question is not how to fix the separation, but how to fix the doubt in Matt's mind, the demons, the insecurities. Because, truth is; there's a lot of things you don't know about Mail Jeevas.