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Before I Was Alive

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Nadia Haffbrook is a 16 year old girl with major problems. She cuts herself and has been for a while. Her parents abuse her but need her to keep their good reputation. She's a loner at her school which is separated into two halves, an all-girls and an all-boys half. She can also raise the dead. She talks to the dead who are the only ones who will listen to her and not judge her. Bullied 24/7 by either her parents or her schoolmates, she usually stays out late,but her parents make sure she pays the price if she stays out too late. While she's out one night she meets a boy, one who goes to her school. You could probably guess where this could lead but you might find yourself surprised. I won't say too much...

All characters and places were made up my me. Any lookalikes or similarities of real people  was completely coincidental. If I find any stories with my characters or places or that share the same plot you will be reported unless of course you had made them up before me. I advise you if that happens not to report as all of this was completely made up by me on a night where I had just suddenly thought of these ideas. Thank you

WARNING! This story is rated PG-13 as I think there are some things younger children shouldn't know about or may not understand. You would be advised to be mature while reading this story and I would like you to take into account that none of what happens in this story happens to me. There is some offensive language in this story and some events that are to be taken seriously.All Rights Reserved

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