My Latest ED Ward Experience
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*This is your trigger warning, if you are upset or triggered by weight, calories, purging, restricting behaviours, hospital environments, etc, be careful while reading this. I will not be including pictures of myself or anyone here with me and will answer any questions you may have. If I deem an entry to be particularly upsetting then I will add a TW at the beginning*
I'm currently in a secure ED ward and need somewhere to write everything down. I also want to show people the reality of eating disorders and where you'll end up if you don't get help or refuse help.
If you are developing or are currently experiencing an eating disorder or disordered eating/behaviours please seek help, you don't want this. You will not feel valid, you will realise that you have a sad existence and that you are dying.
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