The Curse of Conscious
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Too all the duckers who find this...
Welcome, to the place where we say duck. Cause swearing discreetly is smart.
Seriously tho Conscious is hard like we have to have it. But like it's good and bad and thats okay it's our joint curse. It's something we all have so you like me too:)
. You found my poetry I hope you enjoy your stay. We can cry together if you want but I gotta warn ya I'm a hugger. Now I hope you Enjoy and find something in this for your beautiful little heart. UwU
~The Photo that's up will be changing soon and what's coming is a better representation of this place I'm starting to think of it less than a poetry dump and more a place where I leave my beautiful things in Hope's others see it
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