Hiding Her [BEN Drowned X Reader]

"Do it, kill me, like I have anything to live for." she said 'What? She wants to die?' I ask myself, my chest feels warm and so does my face. "Y-you want to die?" I ask looking in to her eyes those big (eyecolor) eyes now rimmed red. "I don't care anymore, my life's a mess my mom a drug addict and my dad an abuser. How am I supposed to be happy?" she said I can't believe it I have this beautiful girl pinned to a wall and she actually wants to die. My face is so warm I can't kill her, 'What are you doing? Kill her already!'