"HOSTS"-STAINED with BLOOD RED DARKNESS [a Markiplier's ego's fanfiction]

do you know how it is to be lonely?

do you know how it is to be forgotten? to be left behind? afterward being driven crazy? being so desperate? desperate to feel? to feel good things? to feel more than emptiness, sadness, and anger?

to want revenge on the once who betrayed you? who let you down? turned their backs to you? who made you confused, heartbroken, misunderstood, and bloodthirsty? then afterward calling you a monster, locking you into a cage, making you a monster? but deepest inside, you want to be loved, to feel happiness and light. . .

but you can't? DO YOU KNOW, HOW THAT FEELS?! DO YOU!? DO YOU KNOW HOW IT IS, TO BE TORTURED, FOR WHAT OTHERS TURNED YOU INTO?! LIKE YOU WERE AN EXPERIMENT, THEY PLAYED AROUND WIth, AS YOU WERE A DOLL?! DO YOU!? DO. YOU?!!!!

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I do.
I am captured in this nightmare. and I lose control of my body and my so-called "feelings" and let out everything on my victims... but I don't want to.

but I know, that there's no, way, out...