I'm probably gonna regret this but oh well... The events of The End have just happened, and Edd is left feeling heartbroken. While Tom and Matt recover, Edd is still depressed over it months later. He can't shake his feelings of regret and betrayal, no matter how hard he tries. Tord is still taking his place as Red Leader in the Red Army, even though he wishes that he could go back and fix things. But he's too scared and has too many responsibilities. How can he ever mend all of the damage he's created? This story contains content that may be triggering or upsetting. Trigger warning for swearing, depression, and self-harm. Read at your own risk. This is my first Eddsworld fic so I hope it's okay :T