What are feelings?
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Hi my name is Mckenzie and I'm trying to figure out my feelings,life,death and other things. I have depression. I just turn 13 and I'm going though that stage just like everyone else. Other people like to fit in but I'm just that one quite person thinking lets see how many scars can i count today. I tried to killed myself countless of times (didn't work as you can see). I get bullied thats what triggers my depression and my parents fight and my dad rapes me i hate it he aways hits me when i say no and forces me. Well got to go.
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