A Penny For Your Thoughts
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Last published Fri, Jul 27, 2018
Lately, it's been getting harder and harder to get through my depression. I wanted a safe place for me to write what's on my mind. I know a journal would make much more sense, but my fiance has been snooping through and she has just lost her mother, so I don't want her to read all my sad shit. This is a MAJOR trigger warning- so if you read and something happens, I warned you.
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