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If this is living, then why don't I feel alive?

HardcoreMermaid

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Reads 12
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HardcoreMermaid

The church bells tolled, patrons made their way out of the building. Dressed in black and forlorn expressions on their faces, some even crying. It’s hard, you know? Attending a funeral. For anyone really, even if you didn’t know the person who passed on. Except, for me. I felt no pain, no sadness (okay maybe a little bit), I simply felt free. Because the person in the casket being lowered into the ground?
That person was me.All Rights Reserved

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Wed, Apr 30, 2014

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