alive // PHAN (DISCONTINUED)
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discontinued years ago lol
"and because of Phil, for the first time in his life, dan finally felt alive"
dan is depressed and feels like he's sinking, falling deeper and deeper into the dark hole that he dug himself
phil tries to be positive and help others, but he does it to help forget his own issues until they all come crashing down on him, making him collapse
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