Things I Can't Say Out Loud
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Ongoing27m
Last published Wed, Nov 6, 2019
I'm doing this because I've realized I'm stuck. I've realized that the thoughts are real and I need to except it. I'm doing this to help myself get to point A to point B with out anyone's help
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