Traumatized By Your Love

I never knew our relationship would turn out this way.

I've been so stupid to trust you again

Now I'm trying my best to forget you, but when that certain day in every month comes, I get hurt and scared that maybe someday you'll come back just to hurt me, so on that day I get wasted and get drunk.

After the way you treated me, I got scared
Scared to love again
Scared that the people whom I love will leave me.

I tend to bottle up my feelings inside
I told myself not to love again, because they will just leave.

Don't blame me if I have trust issues, it's because I've experienced many back stabs in the past years.

Now, I'm afraid to trust people.
Afraid that if I gave them my trust they will just be careless with it.

Now I'm facing depression, trust issues, anxiety, and stress, just because of your love.

From then I knew...

I was...

TRAUMATIZED BY YOUR LOVE