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Indecision

pandabearismine

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Reads 17
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Parts 2
Time 10m

pandabearismine

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Sitting in this dark room would be uncomfortable to most, but heaven for me. The dark atmosphere, the silence, and the cold air smooth against my hot skin. Alone with only my thoughts that haunt me, taunt me, tease, and leave me shattered across this very bathroom floor. The cool stinging of my eyes as they flutter open is welcome as I sit with my knees against my chest, and my head buried between them.All Rights Reserved

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Dysphoria

"I dreamt I grew roots and sunk into deep earth, Where mud became my skin and dampened grains freckled my surface, I opened my mouth wide for the sprouting branches Leaf-speckled limbs And sunflowers blossomed from my eyes, Sunlight bled in waves, when my organ buried, drummed I know I have breathed earth-kissed breeze While moss grew slow and rich from my fingertips To clothe me and paint me living green, My bones turned to thick wood Bark splintering where furry creatures dip and pry in search of hearth, From my hair, summer grass rose toward thunderstormed sky And when those bloated clouds cracked open, wide I was bathed whole and I thought quite suddenly I must be alive" - I Dreamt I Was Living