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MY NUMB HEART

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betrayal deceit exploitation fiction forbidden hate lost love numb runaway urban youngadult

Amanda is a young lady who has been abused sexually by those she loves. She now believes that love is just a myth and miracle, a dream. She gets the chance to escape the terror of her home after years of torture. What is life preparing for her? How is she going to cope with what life throws at her with that belief.
MY NUMB HEART is a book of love, hate , deceit, betrayal and acceptance.


I am pulled out of my thoughts when I inhale the smell of cigarette right beneath my nose.
"Won't you talk?" He asks, clearly annoyed by my silence. 
 "I am sorry. I would give you anything you want, just leave alone" I beg.
"Anything you say" He smiles a very sadistic smile showing his yellow lower teeth. It makes me cringe a little; he notices this small movement and shifts closer to me, pressing my upper body to his. 
"What is a rich fine girl like you doing at 2:00AM on a street like this?" He says while running his calloused fingers on my cheek in a sick way that is making me want to throw up.
"P-please" I stutter. I can feel my body shaking vigorously and my throat clogging up but I stay strong and keep praying that he will just leave me alone. 
"Shut up and answer me" He growls.
"I am going to a friend's house. She would soon be here to pick me. If you just let me go, I promise you won't see me in this street again. Please?" I ask again.
He laughs at my obvious fear, I think.All Rights Reserved

betrayal deceit exploitation fiction forbidden hate lost love numb runaway urban youngadult

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CHAPTER ONE- The midnight drizzle
Tue, Jul 31, 2018

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CHAPTER ONE- The midnight drizzle
Tue, Jul 31, 2018

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