Unchained Love

It's one of the other tiring day again. I don't know if I can still survive the things I'm in. Because for now I know myself I'm not at it anymore. I cannot pursue the things that I can't do and is not totally what I want. Being the only daughter means all the attention are all on you and the thing is they expect too much with me being the daughter of one of the most prominent family in the country.

Gusto ko lang naman ay maging ako. Walang bodyguards na nakasunod, befriend with anyone I want, do the things on my own will at higit sa lahat, kalayan sa lahat ng gusto ko. Na walang maninita, pupuna at magdidikta kung ano dapat ang mga gagawin ko.

I hate that thought because that's what exactly what I am right now while the other normal teenagers are enjoying their life at this time, while here I am most of the time trying to be prim and proper and studying. Minsan nga bihira na lang akong lumabas ng bahay specifically sa kwarto ko just to review all my lessons at pati na rin ang pag aaralan pa lamang namin sa school. Kaya hindi na nakakapagtaka kung masasagutan ko lahat ng tama ang mga quizzes, exams, at iba pang mga activities namin. I'm not putting myself up. If you think I'm smart then it's a no but the truth is I'm not really that smart to ace all the the activities it's just that because I study.

But now all I know is I surely wanna quit. Before, it is still bearable to be in this life but now in those days that I'll woke up with all the same routine I find now that I am not thrilled with my life anymore. I want new environment, new routines, and new life that I want for myself. I want to try to do decisions for myself without the help of others. I just want to let myself to decide my fate.