never look back into that pit of despair
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Last published Mon, Mar 11, 2019
nothing goes as planned when it feels as if the world itself despises you, a horrifying past and a broken childhood is enough to take any kind of sanity away from a child, a few years after a tragic accident Naoki Chiota holds on to life by a mere thread, with thoughts of suicide and constant self harm he keeps his thoughts to himself, in order to keep his sanity he locks all his feelings away and focuses on his studies in order to leave his life behind.
as if destroying years of work to keep himself away from people he has a bizarre encounter with a very bizarre group of misfits, rebels, childish adults and a very shy young lady with a passion for art. will this bunch of weirdos brake open the shell Naoki hid all his feelings and memories in or will their personalities push him further into the pit of despair.
BEWARE, the book has descriptions of suicidal thoughts and self harm, strong language and may contain triggering chapters that could cause painful memories for readers.
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