When There Was Me And You | Part 1
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Complete, First published Aug 03, 2018
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You were my First Love; toxic, unhealthy for my state. 
But i learned Love from you; you taught me what it meant to spend nights 
crying at the edge of my bed and how it felt to really smile.

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This is a collection of poetry for one series- love, pain, toxicity, heartbreak and memory. This is the first experience at love I had. I share with you my experiences, my thoughts, my recollections, my struggle and everything I felt. If you grew up having been deprived of love and then suddenly found yourself carrying what seems like the world's amount of love for someone else-  I don't doubt you won't be able to relate, at one point in this poetry book you'll find yourself in me.

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