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Steve's Diary
James_BuchananBarnes
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James_BuchananBarnes
Complete, First published Aug 04, 2018
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The true life story of Captain America ★


I've always loved him with my whole life, so when he died, I died too despite my still breathing lungs and beating heart. When he reemerged, I was reborn knowing that I'd been given this power so that I might save him on this very occasion. They told me he wasn't worth saving, that he wasn't the man I once loved, but I knew when our eyes met that we still had far more in common than what separated us. If saving him is within reach, I refuse to live without him, and maybe that makes me a fool, but I have to stand up to the masquerade and do what's right. That's always been my way of fighting other people's wars, and it's high time I started fighting so devotedly for my own, too.

PARAQUEL//PREQUEL TO BUCKY'S DIARY

★ installment 1 of 3 in the 'Diary' series ★

•Being Rewritten, currently updated through 12/23/34•


Best rankings to date:
#1 preserumsteve - (winter 2019, spring 2021)
#1 gayfanfiction - (summer 2020)
#1 thewintersoldier - (spring 2019)
#1 skinnysteve - (fall & winter 2020, summer 2021)
#3 stucky - (fall 2019)
#8 endgame - (spring 2021)


WARNINGS: listed within first chapter


Please don't steal my book, I worked very hard on it!


Originally published August 4, 2018. 
Republished March 15, 2025. 


Copyright © 2018 Catherine, @James_BuchananBarnes
Copyright © Marvel (some characters and plot lines)

I do not own any music mentioned throughout the work. 

All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced or used in any manner without the prior written permission of the copyright owner, except for the use of brief quotations in a book review. 

Edited by Catherine, @James_BuchananBarnes
Cover art by Catherine, @James_BuchananBarnes

Some scenarios in this book are fictitious. Any similarity to actual persons, living or dead, is coincidental.
All Rights Reserved
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Series

The Diary Series

  • Season 1
    200 parts
  • Bucky's Diary cover
    Season 2
    125 parts
  • Sarah's Diary cover
    Season 3
    2 parts
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