Suicidal Thoughts
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  • Reads 39,311
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  • Parts 28
  • Time 2h 32m
Complete, First published Aug 04, 2018
Mature
WARNING ⚠️ this story begins with a suicidal scene. If you are easily triggered then I suggest you skip the beginning chapter. 

You have been warned, but on to the actual description... 

Not every story is happy. Not every story is a fairy-tale. Not every story can make you smile. Not every story is going to be happy. But this story is different. It is different in it's on way. 

This is a story for me to tell the world, about me and my very real....suicidal thoughts.

Maybe....just maybe some parts will make you smile😉
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