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The Pain of Existing

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Reads 111,645
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Parts 18
Time 1h 18m

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MATURE!!!!

"Why?"
"It takes away the pain of... existing."
May contain triggers. Homecoming universe.

NO/LIMITED TW MENTIONED!!! READ WITH CAUTION!!!

ngl... I wrote this a long time ago and you can really tell. it's not great. read if you want to, but don't have crazy high expectations. if you want a better quality story, I would just go to some of my more recent works :)

Started: 8/4/18, Finished: 4/6/20

Highest Rankings:
#2 in #sick
#5 in #depressedAll Rights Reserved

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