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As I fall asleep I slowly fall into a deep state of melancholy of darkness that never seems to want to end. My pain cannot be understood from the loved ones around me and it pains me to feel this alone. I finally think I found someone that accepts me and understands who I am and what I want to be. I am scared that if I eventually ask that person to take my hand that they will reject me and discontinue our friendly relationship. I become progressively more lonely each day that passes. Sometimes I want fo end it, simply to save time wasted on my own living hell.
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