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Ambivalence: To have two strong constricting emotions. Ex: Love-Hate relationship.
He took another step towards me, an angry look haunting his blue eyes.
"I hate you." His harsh words collided with my heart, cutting deep into the broken mess.
"I despise you!" I shot my fist forward, aiming for his perfect jaw.
"Then why can't you stay away?" His voice was suddenly soft, almost seductively sweet.
"I could ask you the same thing." 
"Its quite simple, really. You are my favorite drug." 
With a smirk, he was gone. I took a deep breath.       
I couldn't deny these feelings. I loved him. I hated him. 

I needed him.All Rights Reserved

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Addicted by BD_Connoll

"You have no idea how badly I want to make love to you," he responds with a shake of his head. "I love you so much," he continues and my heart melts. "I love you," I whisper back. "Okay, I'm going to make love to you now, Angel. It will hurt a little, so let me know if it hurts too much," he says and leans down to kiss me. "I'll be gentle," he tells me. Keeping his eyes locked on mine he shifts his hips forward slightly and enters inside of me. My mouth widens as he enters, and I feel a slight pinch. He was right, it does hurt, but it's not terrible. "Christ! You're the sun!" he calls out. I watch his face crumble. He buries his face in my neck and then he's above me again, his hands on my cheeks again. ... For 20 year old Alison Scott, love was never something she deemed herself worthy of. Not until he came along. With his tousled brown hair, lean muscular body and smile that ignited everything south of her body; he was unbearably attractive and intimidating to Alison. She thought he could never be interested in someone like her, until he was. Was living in the same household together with someone you want and need such a great idea? As they embark on this journey together, Alison discovers her own desires as well as all the secrets Isaac keeps. You will become addicted to Addicted. Warning: 'Addicted' contains graphic depiction of violence, sexuality, strong language, mature themes, and drug references. Reader Discretion is advised. BOOK 1: ADDICTED BOOK 2: CRAVED (in the making)

Bad Girl| ✔ by cherryapples1232

[Completed]: (8/3/18) Ranks: #1 in lawbreaker (11/21/18) Definition of bad (adj) bad[ bad ] of poor quality:below an acceptable standard in quality or performance unskillful:lacking the skill or competence to perform a task adequately not functioning properly:not functioning properly because of a fault *** "We both know the sexual tension is there. Why don't we just relieve that tension?" He whispered out huskily, his eyes going back and forth between my eyes and lips. "That could be a problem." I push him away gently with my hand. "Why?" I look at him leaning against the counter and I take in his features. His eyes were dark as he stared at me with a lustful expression. "Because sexual attraction always leads to mental attraction and before you know it, you're pulled into all that Lovey shit." I shiver with disgust. He smirks at me with amusement. He leans in and cages me in with both of his arms. "First sexy, I don't do that lovey shit. All I think about when I see you is what you would look like on your knees and if you taste as sweet as your lips." He takes my lip in between his teeth and bites down slightly. ******************************************** Kristen Caterina Black is anything but nice, She loves to screw around, but what happens when she screws with the wrong person? Specifically that person being the infamous Jesse Blake? Following that Jesse Blake and Kristen Black happen to live right next door to each other. Let's just say, a whole lot of cursing happens. (Sequel to shy girl.) P.s you won't have to read the first book to understand the second, but I highly encourage to read the first book.

You And Me, Forevermore by TrishaChakraborty6

"He was the definition of what you call bad, he smoked, he broke the law, he drove too fast for his own good.He didn't care because no one taught him how to. But when it came to her, he wanted to be the best man.He couldn't bare the thought of her being hurt by him...or by anyone else. He would kill to protect her, the girl who cared about someone as worthless as him in all her perfection". "Perfection... that's what she's always been. Not even her scars could steal the hope in her eyes. She waited for someone. And when she met him, she couldn't help what she felt. She fell hard for him. And so did her saviour. The girl who had a little too much heart to go around. She never thought herself of being worthy of his love. And she'd go to hell and back for the one who loved her fiercely".

Say you love me by Liliuth

"I want to help you." His bright eyes sparkle in the moonlight. "You can't help me! You hurt me!" By now, the tears I had been desperately trying to hold back finally slip out. "They hurt you!" As he yells, the anger in his voice eases out; his eyes are filled with familiar sadness. "I have nowhere else to go." I shoot back, taking a step away from him, afraid he will strike me as everyone else does. As soon as he notices this, his eyes widen, and his fists relax. "Come with me." He responds, hope gleaming in his eyes. I look up at the bright moon shining down on us as the breeze ruffles my hair. "Come with you?" I question. Just as he nods my dizziness takes over, sending me to the ground. His hands wrap around me, barely catching me. "Don't let them hurt me." I whisper, looking into his eyes, trying to not let the spinning world take me. "They won't hurt you anymore. Ever." ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Tivelly always seemed like the popular girl, always filling the room with her laughs and bright smiles. No one had noticed the excess of makeup that would occasionally be used to hide the bruises. The words "I love you" being foreign to her. Kaiden has always been one of the guys that her attention is always brought to. The heartthrob every girl wants, but no one ever gets. It took one drunk Tivelly and a Kaiden in his right mind to get them to form a friendship. They both have baggage that weighs on their hearts heavily. Now all they need is each other to get through the storm that's about to hit them head on. Sexual abuse Mental abuse Physical abuse

Your-Man : Book 1 (The Superhero Series) by trishita_b

"I'm a messed up girl." Sigh, peek through lashes, then "Most of the time I either overreact, or I don't react at all. There's a numb spot where my heart should've been and mouth knows nothing but sarcasm." Lip bite, looking away "I've seen too much to make me this. " Eyebrow raised, then "You're a messed up girl." A light nod making the dark tousled hair bounce. "You don't know how to react or how to listen to your heart." Fidgeting with fingers, Is he nervous? "You're not sarcastic you're defensive." Smirk. Damn right he can't be nervous. "You haven't seen too much, you've seen one side of life for too long." Another smirk. Alright, where's the police? Trouble is on its way. "It's about time you see the better side". "I don't want you to be my superman, or batman or ironman or-." Another sigh, then "I'm not a mission! I can't be saved" Smirk, then. "I'm not saving you, you don't need to be saved." Smile, wait what? "Babe I'm Your-Man, and I'm here to give you a good time" Book 1 of 'SuperHero' Series.

Silken Sovereignty: The Healing Bride by laaxmi101

She was never anyone's first choice. Never the one they longed for, never the name whispered in love, never the heart someone ached for. She was just *there*-a replacement, a temporary fix for someone else's absence. When things went wrong, when mistakes needed a scapegoat, the blame always found its way to her. It didn't matter if she deserved it. It never did. And then, *he* happened. He didn't see her as a substitute. He didn't compare her to ghosts of the past. He loved her-*chose* her-like she was the only one who had ever mattered. He held her when she wanted to disappear, stayed when she pushed him away, made her feel like she was something more than just an afterthought. But love was never kind to people like her. Theirs wasn't a fairytale. It wasn't easy. It wasn't perfect. It was messy, painful, riddled with scars from battles neither of them were prepared to fight. But they held on. Because for the first time, she wasn't someone's second choice. She was *his*. And she would rather shatter into a thousand pieces than lose that. Even if it broke her. Even if fate was never on their side.

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