In My Head
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They always say it's all in my head. But what's in my head? What is it that makes them says it all in my head? Is my anxiety all in my head? Is my depression all in my head?
Or is it that no one wants to acknowledge the fact that I might be broken. That I might be different from what the world expects of a teenage girl?
I'm Ricky Alison, and it's all just In My Head.
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