Life Changing
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Last published Fri, Aug 10, 2018
Hi I am Faith,
A 13 year old that has very bad Anxiety and Depression. Here Is How I Feel!
Everyday I cry. I wonder " Will I Ever Be Liked And Have A Best Friend". I know why I am not Liked or have a Best Friend, It is because I am Mean and a Bully to people and my "Friends" Don't like that. I know one day My wishes will come true. I am gonna work my butt off to be a better person.
I drown in my tears because I feel Guilt, Shame, Hopeless and Worthless! I hope that I will have A true love of my life and kids! I know that I am gonna Be a Good wife or girlfriend and a good Mom!
I just need to keep my head high and be more caring person towards others. I am gonna Empower others and help others feel good about their selves. All I got to do Is give good, caring and kind comments to others that feel down!
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