journal entries ➸ saida
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Last published Tue, Aug 20, 2019
"dahyun, you're trying your best, okay? i need you to know that. i need you to know that you're doing what you can, and everything that you can do is enough. you're enough."
dahyun keeps a journal. all her feelings are contained within the pages of her journal. she doesn't trust anyone with that information. maybe she'll learn to trust sana?
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- saida + side michaeng
- american high school au
- fluff
- angst
- swearing
- lowercase intended
- unpredictable updates (sorry)
!!! trigger warning : depression, self harm, suicidal thoughts !!!
DISCLAIMER:
the story is not meant to glorify and/or romanticize the idea of depression and suicide. yes, it is a driving force in the story, but stories of those who have struggled do exist and deserve to be told.
there will not be a "savior" character who saves the "broken character" in this story. it is unhealthy to rely on someone to heal you of your mental illness; it causes a toxic codependent relationship. instead, the protagonist will recover through her own will with support from the other characters.
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