Hate You? Never

I woke up, with panic and terror. Adrenaline and anxiety consuming my whole body! shaking., though not because of the chill climate outside which i usually love..
I guess this usually happens after the love of your life breaks up with you telling that he doesn't and hasn't loved you at all and you wake up screaming from your dream where you find him confessing that he cheated on u!!
I run to the bathroom to allow the little amount of food i ate on the previous day to come out completely. Cleaned up and settled down thinking...
What am i going to do? after 7 years on love and friendship mixed together, i finally thought we now belong to each other and here goes..nothing!
He was my joy, my source of everything!! N now, he is gone! leaving me all alone like never before.