Through His Eyes

It's depths of the night but I'm still awake. I can feel the wind coming outside of my open veranda.

I'm here again lying on my bed, alone in the darkness with my heart shattered into pieces.

I thought that I was accustomed to be alone, but I'm wrong. It all started when she came and annoyed my peaceful life.

Ang bigat ng pakiramdam ko. Para akong namamatay sa sakit ng puso ko. Akala ko kakayanin ko...

I hate my self... I hate my self because I can't stop thinking about her. I almost can't breath to the truth that she's gone... She left...

It's damn hurt...

I'm living but I'm dying inside. Pwede pala 'yun? 'Yung buhay ka nga at humihinga pero sa loob mo ay para ka ng namamatay. 'Yung ramdam mong parang hindi na tumitibok ang puso mo.

I didn't stop my tears from falling...

I don't believe in love but I'm doubting myself on thinking when I feel her, her presence that is unique from others, her presence that love.

But she's gone...

I'm so occupied with thoughts when I stiffenend by the touch of a soft hand who wipe my tears. I can feel my heart beating rapidly. Her soft hand touches my skin electrifies my whole body.

"Stop crying..." I missed her angelic voice.

I can't help but to shed more tears. I know it's just my hallucination but I'm praying it wasn't. I missed her so much that it hurts.

"Hush, baby, I'm here now." She said again.

Another tears fall as I closed my eyes. I don't want to wake up if it is a dream.

I hold her hand while she carries my face. I'm so happy that I can feel her, touch her and hear her even if it's just a dream, even if it's just a hallucination, even if it's just this time... I'm still happy...

"I'll not going to leave you again." And then, I feel her soft lips touches my forehead...