No emotions

Hi, I'm y/n. i had an amazing life. A boyfriend where I was 2 years with, my mom and dad, my best friend and the best school ever. But... one day, that changes. My boyfriend broke up with me, my best friend was diagnosed cancer, my dad became in prison bc he steal things and my mom... lonely and depressed. I had to move from school and I really don't like that. Now we are 3 years further. Still heartbroken, sad my best friend doesn't get better and I miss my dad but I hate him to. I locked everyone out from that day. No one can see my feelings, no one can let me say what is wrong and NO one can become close to me or be my friend. The only ones that can do this are my mom and my bestie. Otherwise... no emotions...