Soldier In Disguise

But it all came to a fast hault. i met your dad walking away from my grandmas , we argued a lot but I stayed with her for a while because I got kicked out of foster care and before all that she had always been there despite her fragile mental state more often than none she tried. and she just got sicker and I had to go , he stopped me asked if I smoked and I said he'll yeah because at this point I could really use a joint and considering I didnt know where I was going I had a lot of time on my hands. I wish I had kept walking and took whatever else God had lying ahead in the path for me but then I wouldn't of met you. he was sweet at first he made me forget and when I couldn't sleep he'd hold me , when we didn't have a thing to eat he found it for a while that I was homeless he was really who took care of me but one day he changed like that the little things I did to make him laugh weren't so funny anymore , my anxious ways were annoying , I was fat and ugly . don't yell I'll hit you , then there was you. you were two little lines on a pregnancy test in the homeless shelter because I finally left him and now he had me from the inside out with the most beautiful heartbreaking fragile person in my belly and I didn't know what to do. all my responsibility grew in my head and to me I never knew what the definition of mother was , what did mother's do ? I mean really tho they buy you things they feed you but they do other things too and was I even built with any of that I me ?, what is love ? will Kyle stay with me ? the nights were so long because he never stayed around then he would just pop up and I wasnt by myself anymore and i wish I knew who he was because I really never did I guess I was just lonely , lonely is evil really it finds you and dresses up really nice and offers you a breath of fresh air but always only for a moment.