Insecurity

Dear diary,

I'm shattered and will never be reconstructed.

I hate everything about me, and by everything I mean everything you could possibly think of.

The ugly thoughts are always in the back of my head and I try my hardest not to think about it, it's scars me to this day but I can't help it. I always wonder what would've happened if things went another direction, it scares me how in a snap of a finger life can be taken away so fast. I don't regret everything I did in the past, the pain I've been through aches so badly. I despise the way agony feels, the way your heart ignites, insides churn, limbs throb, eyes consistently filled with tears.

When I'm upset, I shut myself down. I have no motivation for anything. I tell myself that nobody cares, even though I know some do. I think of all the negative things I could possibly think of. I give myself all the pain, thinking I deserve it. I'm not sure why I do that, but that's just who I am.

It hurts, but it's ok... I'm used to it. And someday, I hope that my sadness will be replaced with something beautiful.

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Cora Brown is quiet and reserved. Damaged with all her insecurities and issues drowning her alive, she spends her life with her abusive, delinquent, neglectful father.

Alec Thompson is a reckless bad boy, he had it all with his good looks, girls drooling over him. He was your typical rebellious bad boy who was peculiar and what makes him mysterious is that he is unpredictable with his concealed persona.

What happens when the bad boy and fragmented damaged girl have forged together?

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