I just want to revenge (But I failed) (PART 1) [on going]

(He’s parent's make my life miserable...)
(...they make my parent's suffer from what they called 'blackmail')
(I was just 9 years old in that time when I found myself crying and pleasing to a guy with his black man's)
"Please... don't kill my papa, please, please"(I beg but...)
*bang...*
(I found myself shouting and crying)"PAPA!!! Huhu!! PAPA!!"
(I run towards my father, lying with his blood, I cry and cry when he trying to hold me and hug me.)
"P-princess p-please...s-save yourself and y-your mom...*cough/with blood*...I-I love y-you"(he said and close his eyes)
"PAPA!! No! No! No...Please don't leave us PA!! Huhu"(I shouted)
(I was shock when the guy put the gun in my head...I was so scared...he's hand is shaking, so I used that and beg again...)"please d-don't kill me...” (I said)
(I was so thankful coz. he threw away the gun and walk away)
"Hey! What happen to that guy?"
(I turn around and found a kid standing shock pointing to my father...)
(He smiled I found myself mad in that kid, why he keep in listening to that guy...if he saw blood in the ground)
"He he ok...thank you...bye2"(he walk away with the guy in shade but they stop and the kid walk towards me)"hello! I’m yhulo monares... Congrats you can be a good actress someday...ahm do you want to come tomorrow? It’s my birthday...” (He said)
(Anger felds my mind and my heart I feel insulting in that time... I shout!!)"I HATE YOU!! YOU! You’ll GONNA PAY FOR THIS"(I said in a powerful voice)
"SOMEDAY I well MAKE YOUR FAMILY SUFFER!! I will never! Ever forget this..."(I said full of anger)
(Anger feel'd my mind and my heart, I feel insulting in that time... I shout!!)"I HATE YOU!! YOU! You’ll GONNA PAY FOR THIS"(I said in a powerful voice)
"SOMEDAY I well MAKE YOUR FAMILY SUFFER!! I will never! Ever forget this..."(I said full of anger)