Save Me
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MatureOngoing11m
Last published Mon, Sep 17, 2018
Hey...
I don't know if you're reading this or not, but I hope you are.
And I hope that out of simple reasons; to say goodbye and tell you how much I actually loved you.
And that I'm... that I'm sorry. For everything.
But this is for the best. Because I tried. I tried so fucking hard to be enough and to give you all of me when there was barely anything left. To give you all the love I never received.
But I can't anymore.
Do you remember all the times you told me I was strong? And that I could get through anything.
Well I'm not strong. I'm weak. Always has been.
I can't fight anymore... not when you are slowly slipping away and no one is there to help me fight.
I know it's bad to relay on others. But you. You're to only person I've ever loved. That I ever will love. And I couldn't imagine a life without you.
And I don't know. I'm a mess. I don't know what I've written so far.
Just know that I'm sorry. And that I miss you. But not for long. My feelings will soon be gone. All my emotions will disappear - together with the beat of my broken heart.
I love you... more then you could ever imagine.
// Lake
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*TRIGGER WARNING*
Please be aware that this story contains sensitive subjects, such as self harm, depression, suicide attempts.
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