stages

You realize that you do indeed have things to live for that you previously could not think of. You realize that your death would hurt many people. You realize that people do care about you. Your friends, your family, your mother. They tried to support you, and you just pushed them away because you were only able to focus on the negativity in your life. You missed your chance at pulling yourself out of the self-made pit of depression and hatred toward yourself, and now you'll never get it back.