If becoming an adult was a race and the junior class was Riley Wyman's competition, he would be dead last. All his friends have jobs, know how to drive, and have all been in relationships. He's never had a job, he doesn't know how to drive, he's never been in a relationship-only on small dates, and he's never been on more than three dates with one girl. He isn't really all that into dating, anyway. That is until he shares a brief moment of passion with a boy at a party, and the thought of liking boys becomes a lot more real and slightly less terrifying.
He had questioned his sexuality before, but was always too afraid to really let himself dive into it. Because of his mother's strong Catholic beliefs and his father's traditionalism, he is afraid to explore this self-discovery because of how it could impact his family, and ultimately, his safety. He keeps his first experiences with love and heartbreak a secret as he awaits the day he can show his true colors.
Elliot's partner was his whole world, but after Allan's death, his ghost haunts Elliot's dreams. Everyone tells Elliot to move on, but he isn't sure he can.
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It's been a year since the love of Elliot's life, Allan, passed away. Everyone thinks he should have recovered after that much time, but Allan still haunts Elliot every night. He struggles to maintain relationships with his family, and despite a coworkers interest he can't summon up the courage to date. Elliot is living for the past, because to live for the present means he'll have to live with a hole in his heart. But the question Elliot has to face chases him through his monotonous days: is mourning Allan with everything he has truly living?
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