Trapped

I sat there in deep thought listening to the pounding rain. "This can't be real" I thought to myself. Maybe the more I thought it the more I would believe it. "It's just a coincidence" I said with a slight chuckle. Maybe the more I said it aloud the easier it'd be to trick myself.  "I'll be fine!" I shouted. Maybe if other people heard it, I would know I wasn't going crazy.  "I'll be fine." I said again in a whisper, but it was lost in the very same wind that took my breath away when the cloth was placed over my mouth.