The 4 Day Cycle

This is a journal about somebody I cared about, but sadly couldn't get back due to their ex being controlling. I tried as you see in this short journal, but ultimately didn't work. I did my best to stick with her, but you can only fight so much before you need to stop.

Some backstory:
We knew each other for 6 months, didn't start dating until the 9th of August, that's when I was told by her ex when she was starting to lose her self. What I mean by that is, she in this timeline of the journal you're reading, was in a state where nothing mattered anymore. She didn't care about anyone, or anything and he was there trying to help her. I fucked up by not listening to her when she said was depressed, and I know I made a mistake so I wanted to fix it.

This was originally going to be sent to her once we started talking again, but you'll know I stopped it and you can now read it. I was writing this to her, as you'll see. This was meant for her to read but it's too late now.

I want you to know that I'm changing for the better, I will and I am.
You can say what ever you want about me but it doesn't matter, who I was then, isn't who I am now.