Beyond That Smile
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Most people like to keep their lives private. I was so afraid of how people would look at me once they found out what I have been through, and still am; I am still afraid. So this is going to be my diary in a way, however, it's laid out for the world to see. Yet, I'm going to keep my identity anonymous. For those who are wondering why I am doing this, I need a way to express how I feel without becoming embarrassed.
I will either have poems or...whatever comes to mind
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