Ashton works at his uncle's pub for a living. He has to, or else his two little siblings will have no money, as both Ashton's parents are gone. Ashton is lonely, and no one understands him - he has no one to talk to, but still,he got used to wearing a facade of happiness. He's always trying to look like everything's good, when really, everything's just falling apart. One night, he feels like everything is as usual, when a certain guy walks in. That guy will change Ashton's life forever, he just doesn't know that yet. He doesn't know the guy who walks in the place, even though everybody else in the world does.
"You don't understand that I want nothing more than just be yours? it's the only thing I want. How can I explain that the only thing that's on my mind is you? You just don't get out of it, and it drives me crazy!"
While on tour Ashton has been struggling the past couple of months, while no one seems to notice, until Luke does one day. Luke who has started drinking again struggles to contain his back and forth mindset with his feelings towards Ashton and his own issues. Luke's battle with substance abuse and Ashton's declining mental health, mixed into their already crazy lives, starts a horrible downhill spiral for one of them.
Trigger warning
This book contains graphic descriptions and feelings that the reader may be trigger by, please read at your comfort level, this book is also incomplete and I haven't edited the chapters at the top to contain trigger warnings yet.
-work in progress-
Started in 2017 and picked up again in 2024. I feel like my writing has changed a lot since 2017, very unedited, just something for me to do/ keep me occupied.